it out loud . My husband is an allchooic and has been sober for 15 years. He has gone to an AA meeting almost every day of those 15 years. I have also struggled with my weight and have gone to weekly weight support meetings. I'm not sure AA would work for me because I never spoke up at the weight loss meetings and I hate the thought of going to meetings for the rest of my life. I'm afraid to try and fail since my husband has succeeded there. I have been surrounded with alcoholism all my life. My mother was an allchooic and I started drinking when I was 14. By the time I was 18, I had tried numerous drugs and drank until I passed out every weekend. God intervened and I survived Hep B. I headed off to college and did not drink for a year on the advice of my doctor. I also have been able to stop drinking when I was pregnant. I was always the designated driver because my husband drank more than me and I was responsible for the kids so I was a pretty respectable social drinker. I have been in denial all my life that I was not an allchooic. The truth is that I was just very good at controlling it. Now my husband is the designated driver and my children are on their own. There is nothing stopping me from drinking a bottle of wine every night. Ever since I empty nested , I have known that I am losing my battle with alcohol. My husband's brother died from alcoholism and my husband still regrets that they tried an intervention on him. My husband never says anything to me about my drinking, but I know he counts every time I refill my glass. I love what is written for Step 1: when drinking to socialize becomes drinking to be normal; you've crossed the line. There it is in black and white and I can deny it no longer. I only drink one or two glasses of wine at parties or dinners. I drink a bottle or at least half a bottle every day between the time I get home from work until the time I go to bed. I am powerless over alcohol. I am going to put on the armor of God by reading the suggested scriptures and pray for God's strength to help me overcome my addiction.